With In My Solo Exchange Diary: Volume 1 Kabi Nagata describes the methods when the book of My Lesbian Experience with Loneliness changed her life and examines the bounds of her perpetuating loneliness.
Something that hit me personally about it friend manga had been the notion that is recurring of impossibility of forcing closeness. This notion had been broached within the very first manga and in my own final article, but Nagata adopts exponentially increased detail in My Solo trade Diary. The very first scene which broaches this dilemma is Nagata’s account of just one of her visits towards the escort agency. In this extract, Nagata asks the escort should they could, merely, hug. Nude, and clean from their shower, the 2 females hold one another tightly. It is as though Nagata is wanting to truly have the coldness, the loneliness, squeezed away from her. Nevertheless, while they hold one another, Nagata ponders the many phases of real closeness. Certainly, she believes, it really is easiest to fulfill some body naturally, be knowledgeable about them and go from brief details, at hand keeping, to kissing, an such like. But, regardless of the not enough psychological closeness within their embrace, being held helps Nagata rid by herself of her emotions of coldness – that night, she seems hot, proclaiming skin that is“human dangerous! I’m perhaps perhaps not that is cold28). Nagata seems hot and complete – for the full time being.
Extrapolating on her behalf meditation on loneliness, Nagata notes that “loneliness is not being physically alone – it is whenever individuals near you don’t recognise who you really are or your abilities” (39). Continue reading On Lesbian Loneliness: My Solo Trade Diary, Vol 1 (2/3)